15&1 things life has taught me

Here's a small list of things (in no particular order) life has taught me.

1. Nothing is for free, everything comes with a price.
2. Don't expect everything to stay the same forever, make the most of it while you can. One day you'll look back and wonder why you didn't take the chance.
3. Don't judge someone if you don't know them and if you do, don't judge them anyway, you aren't in their shoes. 
4. Take life as it comes at you. Stay focused on today and not yesterday or you'll find yourself swept off your feet.
5. Its a world of opportunity only that it goes around disguised as hard work.
6. Society is harsh, they'll kick you to the ground then kick you some more.
7. The truth is the truth hurts. People would rather be lied to than face reality.
8. Love is powerful but time and patience is stronger.
9. Friends are easy to come by, but loyalty is a difference story. Out of all the people you know how many of them are likely to help you if you're in the dirt?
10. Life is a learning experience, its not something you can learn about in a text book, its not something you can predict. Its a journey of falling sideways through time in which you experience so much and end up being battered and bruised before being spat out.
11. It's a book written in pen and sooner no matter how small you write it must come to an end. You can't erase the words written, only cross them out and hope no one notices. 
12. Never hold a grudge against someone, forgive them but don't forget them.
13. The good created in fighting is only temporary while the evil created is permanent. 
14. Some rules are meant to be broken.
15. Life isn't made up of black and white its an infinite grey.

Plus 1. Be who you are, if you don't know who you are then you have clean slate to start. People judge you by what they see and hear, they don't take the effort to learn who you are. How can you judge something without even understanding it? If people don't accept who you are then why bother with them. Be a first rate version of yourself, instead of a second-rate version of somebody else.

Something really is wrong with me. And I don't know what it is.

I know that I brought this all on myself. I know that I deserve this. I'd do anything not to be this way. I'd do anything to make it up to everyone. I wish people would stop telling me its wrong. Just tell me how to be different in a way that makes sense. To make this all go away. And disappear. I know it was wrong & it's my responsibility. I wish I could fix everything but I can't. I'm sorry. ><'

 

-I want you to know that I am both happy and sad 

and I'm still trying to figure out how that could be-

Philosophy buddy?

So there's this person who has seriously the same sort of mentality as i do. ^^
It's nice to know there someone so similar to me, people like it are hard to come by.
Iuno but i think like every extended conversation we have turns into a lot of philosophy and its quite
meaning full. Im not saying we are completely identical copies of each other, sure there's a quite a lot i'd like to learn about them. :)

Sometimes they can be quite befuddling with terrible explanations xD but its not like i can talk ;o
Over all i've decided they are quite nice and pleasant to talk to^^, though it does affect me later in the day being trippy and falling asleep oo'

ceebs

I am so ceebs writing blogs
i'd rather talk to someone about stuff than actually type it all out
who'd of thought i would have started to write one,
i have like no time to really update cos i have no time or barely any to myself, its just all taken up by studious work. Going to an elite school seriously causes the time to fly by doing work.

Life so far...

I never thought it would be this hard to let you go.

As much as i try it’s hard to face the facts that you aren't here with me. 

You've moved on while I’m still here living in the past and what use to be. 

The memories of you are the ones that make me smile and ones that make me cry. 

Everyday i visit places that we use to be, i can still see the footsteps in my mind of where we tread together. 

I know that i can never take back what i did and there isn't a day that goes by that i don’t regret it. I know you deserve someone a lot better than me and hope one day you'll find that someone. Maybe you already have, only time will tell. Our chapter has come to a close and it’s time to start writing a new one the only problem is i have no idea where to start rolling the pen.
I’ve tried to start over but it isn’t real, I’ve built these walls around and in me to block everything out. I feel like I’ve lost myself in piles of worries that I keep to myself. I don’t like to trouble people with my worries, it only stresses them out, well the ones who actually want to hear it. At times i think have hypophrenia when I just have too much time to think and it sucks because I have a lot of reasons to smile for what I have and what I don’t.
I spend so much time nowadays making sure everyone else happy that I don’t think about mine. People seem to come to me when they have problems and then go away when everything’s fine. I wish a person would come to me and actually ask me how I am and wait for to answer it properly instead of instantly switching to their problems.

I’ve started in a new school and instead of helping me; I think it’s made me wonder who my real friends are. Now I know good friends are hard to come by but still by this time shouldn’t I have figured it all out? Boy life is a lot harder than it seemed when I was a kid *eat, play, sleep* and that was it. I guess the innocence of childhood has kinda rubbed off in this world. There isn’t much white or black left and way I see it, it’s becoming just a sea of grey as the years go by. Making decisions that seem so easy and logical are clouded by my emotions. Ethics I stood by just crumble to what my peer’s views.
Realising more and more of the world we live in and how people treat one another draws to me of how I treated people in the past and wonder how many people I’ve hurt, made upset or the friends I lost because of my actions. This was a couple of years ago when I made this observation and oddly enough, despite holding this view I have still fallen to woes of society and not practising what I preach. Life is a time full of promises we break and memories that break us, but to every cloud there’s a silver lining and to every bit of rain there’s rainbow. These are the moments that we should cherish and be optimistic about but it’s a wonder how many people see it as I do.
I guess it mostly trying to move on is the most concern for me. It’s hard to concentrate on my studies and I end up failing assignments. It annoys me that I use to try and now I don’t. I use a lot of brain power to keep my mind off it but its way more than I can handle and then I bum out.
Exams are over now and the new semesters about to start and I should really get on with it and try my hardest, lets just see how things go.

Do all the good you can, by all the means you can, in all the ways you can, in all the places you can, at all the times you can, to all the people you can, as long as ever you can. ~ John Wesley

Examm studyy

here we are at school being nerds and studying on fundamentals D:
actually is working atm
featuring . tina, blair, evelyn ^^

man
srsly gonna fail this exam :D
just had math but that was a lot easier than i though it would be :o

happy birthdayy alyy

lalalaaa
you probably wont even see this but anyway
HAPPY BDAY ALYY ^^
i hope you have a good day today, even tho we have exams :(





just thinking about it have you notice that we've gone to the same institutions?
mvps then hv and now jmss :O we should so go to uni together xD

One day we'll find out that one thing that makes life worth it.

-KyWen-